and here it is. When “thank you” trips over “I’m sorry”, I think I finally learned the concept of trust, but it seems to be too late. I want to beg you to forget the last 3 hours. I don’t know anything. I know too much. I wish I could get back some naivety, something to make me less scared of missteps. To be able to say “I didn’t know” and mean it, and have that be a good enough excuse. A pat on the head and a dismissal to the treehouse. please stop pretending I am an adult.
I want you to know that I appreciate your efforts to make it all better for me.
There is one person on this entire planet that I’m not “cool” with. I wish I could change that. All the time, all the time, all the time. I hate to see him. The most stressful thing in my life. Why can’t we just be chill?
Scratch that, Where is my apology.
Then, maybe. We could be chill.
I am unhappy tonight. Shadows.