The sunshine is still here, just… reflected back. I am the moon tasting of the sun in the nighttime. The past distorts, shines brighter, cuts deeper, gives off radiation so strong my hair falls out. Everything grows back, eventually, but sobriety is a far cry from dawndrunk and I am still waiting for sunrise. I am a starfish cut in half. Half of me takes a plane to New Jersey. Half stays here. I cook half of what I would be cooking, I drive my car half as much. You are out there living the rest of what I should have. You go out. I work. I go out. You look for work. I search for a window back to you. The internet connection is slow and I think of turtles and weddings and a steady income to raise two children on. I wait. See you soon is a drastic overstatement. I will see you. That is all.