Worked a night shift at the nursing home last night. Memory Care.
Was with one old lady trying to get her to lay down (she stays up till 4 AM usually, wandering around which is cool but then they’re tryna get her up by 8 AM which is not so cool).
Anyways we were singing together and looking into her eyes I got hit with this… phrase “the universe experiencing itself” (Alan Watts quote at end of post). The phrase kept chiming in my brain.
Lost my false duality. It was like the universe was looking into itself when I looked into her eyes.
These are the kind of thoughts I have when I’m going nuts. I was thinking “DANG I CANNOT BE GOING CRAZY AGAIN SO FREAKING SOON.” But when I actually go crazy I’m not usually worried about it… I’m just like… a rocket shot directly into the sun. Brain screaming in exhilaration.
Getting enough sleep is my only reassurance.
“Through our eyes, the universe is perceiving itself. Through our ears, the universe is listening to its harmonies. We are the witnesses through which the universe becomes conscious of its glory, of its magnificence.”
― Alan Wilson Watts