Tips for True Love
2. Find someone who is good at apologizing.
1. Be someone who is good at apologizing.
Month: February 2014
accomplishments and bemoanments
This weekend I:
- worked 8 hours
- wrote 2 papers
- wrote 3 poems
- went to church (that’s where I wrote the poems so two birds/one stone I guess)
- did my laundry
- PUT AWAY MY LAUNDRY
- cooked a huge pot of soup
- cleaned my room, took out garbage
- blew off a few people who wanted to hang out with me
- skyped with my boyfriend
- browsed the internet again and again and again.
I look so much more productive on paper. I feel like all I did was stare at my computer. I need to not be addicted to the interwebs. I need to hang out with people instead of canceling on them, Friday night I did nothing at all except skype with him. I’m becoming a boring person or sad maybe. It’s a small sad though. It pales in comparison to my dark times of the past, so I don’t really count it.
Nostalgia: I miss the beach.
can’t do it alone
I love this song.
How do you know if something is a mistake, or an actual character flaw that is really gonna Eff up your entire future with someone?
Time.
spine
Romance
know your enemies
dedicate songs to them,
dance the last number with
jealousy, a slow waltz,
low murmured headrush
lean against
the doorframe,
touch selfishness briefly on the mouth
take anxiety home and
leave quietly at dawn before he
traces your spine and pulls you
closer
—
as always I find myself finally able to write when I attend church. very odd. I like this one though 🙂
mer
Writer’s Block is the most satisfying beast to kill in the whole world I think. A lot less species would be endangered if hunters would have only picked up a pen instead of a gun.
Happy Valentine’s Day! This is the first time I’ve made it this far with anyone and that makes me exceedingly joyous.
Writer’s Block
I am not broken
anymore
rainbows only bleed from
cracked glass, I am none of this
my creative beasts have chewed
their way out of me,
who will cook?
whose claws will mutilate printer paper
into soggy, squalling origami?
who will hold my head down, under the ink
watching the bubbles float up until I finally
thrash-up
gasping
?
my scars are almost gone
and
there is no ink in the larder
slowly
cleaning my house because the possible future grandmother of my babies is coming over Sunday… and…. I BOUGHT A VACUUM CLEANER! An expensive one! I hope it works well or I’ll be sad. This is something I’ve always wanted: a really nice vacuum cleaner. I’m overly excited.
This is how I plan a eurotrip… by poorly drawing a map of Europe.
Boyfriend’s mom is giving me advice on relationships and marriage so
I guess she likes me?
!!
wish me luck as my boyfriend’s mom is coming here from India.
I had no idea there would be a family audition so fast… ayeeeee. I gotta remember my formal Hindi so I can be respectful.
ARGHHH FAMILY AUDITIONNNN.
just convince me now
my head is all over the place. This is helpful.
also, (perhaps even moreso)
I’ll be honest I’m only in college because I should be, i.e. for my parents, and for the rest of the family. And because I have a large scholarship.
The experiences I’ve had I wouldn’t trade for four years of traveling. University has been a blast. But I am so glad to finally be done and FREE. Well in May.
I think once I get back from Europe I’ll take a weekend off every month to go somewhere in the U.S. and do a dancing workshop, probably salsa. I need to meet people who like to dance and travel, then I won’t have to go solo so much.
I just want to dance, always. I think that’s all I’m going to do when I graduate (along with keeping the job at the old folks home). I wish I could do it for a living.
